Change

A Change in perception and the entire landscape of life will look different. I remember a time when someone would try to do the smallest thing for me and I could not accept it. It was easy for me to give of my time and whatever I had but to receive was an entirely different matter. You see, I had sunk to the low vibration of unworthiness. So much damage done so young that I believed I was useless, worthless and as one my mother said frequently “nothing but a piece of shit.”

As I worked with my feelings of unworthiness I began to open up and feel worthy enough to accept a kindness. Change was happening but it was slow to produce visible change. Despite my efforts to develop self love and balance, receiving was still awkward. Each time something nice came my way I worried for the other shoe to drop. I also felt a measure of indebtedness which became a bench mark for how much work I had yet to do.

A personal realization:

I have felt indebted when all I needed to Be was a gracious receiver. I flip flopped from inferiority to superiority complexes at a drop of a hat. So fragile in my dysfunction. With that said, I have felt entitled when in truth I owed a debt of gratitude and then some.

Times have changed, people change, I have changed. Today I am as I was before I lost my self to fear, doubt, worry, and to the lie that I was not enough.

Now I Am as I have always been before I changed to become some one I was not.

Liberation is a quality embraced by expanding consciousness.

love and light

Astara

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